Power of the Mind and other ramblings.

{This is a wordy one. Read it if you'd like. At least read the big text. I thought for writing at midnight and on that it was pretty epic.}

I've been thinking lately about the power of our minds. I grew up learning that everything was created spiritually before it was actually created. I have always perceived that to be speaking about the things Heavenly Father creates, but now I am starting to see a true connection. We are children of our Heavenly Father, and I believe that this ability lies within us, to a point. We can create what we want out of life in our minds and have the ability to actually create it. Therefore, we really should be careful with what we let ourselves think because it will become our reality.

Affirmations I will tell myself in hopes that they will become my reality.
I am a wonderful mother--I always try to be my best, but accept my shortcomings.
I am strong--I will keep up with my exercising and eat healthier foods.
I am beautiful--I will do my makeup and hair to some extent. I am worth it.


The blurb above was written in February. Interestingly enough, this is what is on my mind... again. First off, I just watched the Dove commercial that seems to be a hot topic. Secondly,  I have noticed lately that a lot of my friends have the ability to remember and connect things that I feel I haven't done since high school. Probably doesn't make sense, but I feel as though I have become more stupid and yet smarter since high school. I believe that maybe it's I have lost my youth and excitement along the way. Thirdly, I want to be different. There are things I like about me. Wow, as I just typed that last sentence, a feeling came over me like I really needed that reminder. I've been hearing a lot about how Heavenly Father really loves us. And we need to see others and ourselves as we can become. I don't think it has truly sunken in. I like myself. I like myself. (side note: Lion King just popped into my head, "Say it again." *giggles* "Mufasaaaaa.") But really go say it to yourself. Maybe it will work for you, too. All my life I have been told what I need to do and what I need to fix.

 It's great to see where you can improve, but I KNOW that we cannot enjoy life and live in the moment if we cannot appreciate what is.

Or at least I'm coming to that realization. Ever since Emily came into our lives, I have experienced a roller coaster like never before. I believe that in life, when we grow (quite literally. First we have just me-adding a husband-adding kids--etc.) our pains and joys become more extreme. Which pretty much makes sense. But I never knew how much a change motherhood would be. Being a homemaker. Of course I don't HAVE to do anything. But whatever happened to wanting to? Whatever happened to chasing our dreams? Being a mom just has a new lifestyle. I don't have deadlines; I don't get grades. So how am I supposed to measure my life?

I suppose through giggles and love. Just a different way of living.


It's just so foreign, and I dare say unsatisfying. I wonder if that's why we post our highlights? It's our way of proclaiming to the world, "I deserve an A+." I mean, I am assured that's not the case all the time. We want to keep family and friends updated and preserve our memories. But when you've grown up in a world that you reap your benefits of hard work so quickly, it's hard to keep working hard when there doesn't seem to be as much to benefit from. Sure, in 10 years my hard work today will have paid off (hopefully), but what about today? It used to be I would work hard for a month or two and get a "1" on a solo. Bragging rights. Congratulations. The whole burrito. Now, I clean my house. Maybe make dinner. And I get a kiss if I'm lucky (or a cheek of slobber if I'm luckier). haha. But really, that right there is the best reminder why we all do it. Why we all put our own lives and glorious achievements on hold. To bring up the next generation. And by golly, they are just so dang worth it. So thanks for letting me work out that reminder.

P.S. If you read all that, you're a champ. Seriously. And if your understood it, you're a pro. I just reread it, and I got a glimpse of my 14 year-old-self rambling, not finishing thoughts thoroughly. Welcome to my brain. It hasn't changed much. ;)